Life right now seems a little all over the place (when is it not?). I am two weeks out from my last round of chemo!! Woo hoo! I feel amazing, I didn’t know one could even feel this good. I have tons of energy, I am in such a good place, and Chris has told me on many occasions that he has never seen me this happy. I clearly have a new found appreciation for my life in general, but even the little things like not having to take a nap during the day in order to hopefully make it through homework and making dinner, makes me feel so good. Also, I mean, chemo was hands down the hardest thing I have ever had to get myself through. Physically and mentally there were so many times I thought, I just cannot make it through one more round. Not to mention we didn’t have much help. It was our choice. We had a babysitter that helped us out on occasion, but really it was all on Chris. Everyone focuses on the patient after a cancer diagnosis (caregivers are the real heroes), but honestly and truly we couldn’t have made it through without Chris.
Round four and five were incredibly challenging. Actually they were down right scary. The side effects I had put me in the hospital more than once. Our main focus through all of this is the kids. I have said since day one that I don’t want cancer to disrupt their lives. They are all young enough to quickly adapt to the changes going on around them, and then just keep it moving. So Chris and I, no matter the amount of stress and juggling that we have to do during the day, we just try and keep everything as normal as possible. Which in turn has been the best thing for us as well.
Right now the main focus is me staying healthy so that I can keep my surgery date! It is coming up, but it seems like the flu just keeps taking out the people around me. I have had SO many doctors appointments in the last couple weeks, and my team of doctors seem to be really happy with the results from chemo, which makes it all worth it! I am really excited for surgery. I know recovery will be long, and intense, not to mention painful….but I have been wanting to just cut the cancer out since I found out there were tumors in there!
I also still have a targeted chemo drug that I will be getting every few weeks for the rest of the year. I know I have such a long road still ahead of me, but it seems like we are just powering through it!
Since I have been feeling good, we have been getting out of the house more and more (with caution because germs). Last week the Savannah Influencers (the non-profit group I am apart of) had their inaugural event benefiting Safe Shelter. It was an absolutely amazing night. I brought the girls with me during the day to help set up, and then to come back at night and see the space transform and be filled with people, was just incredible! I feel so lucky to be apart of such a phenomenal group of women. The group is so diverse, yet every single person is there to support one another and the community! I really have never met a group of women who drop what they are doing to build one another up. In a day where social media breeds jealousy, competition, and negativity, it feels good to surround yourself with women who throw all that to the side.
I am looking forward to so much this year, but at the same time I am just soaking in every little bit of everyday. Trying to force every moment into a long term memory.
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